Truth is, I was reading my friend Heidi’s most recent blog post, where Heidi was reading Katie’s post about “Truth is” — they revealed what is happening in their lives right now. Both of them inspired me so much. They graciously communicated intimate moments of their lives. Both gave such heartfelt details, that I felt inclined do one of my own. Lately, my posts have become increasingly impersonal and boring, so I thought it was due time to connect with you on a deeper level. So here we go.
Truth is, I am really very at peace in my life right now. In fact, I’m feeling so good it’s difficult to find interesting things to write about. I know this sounds awful, but I am most inspired to write when I am struggling through dark times. I don’t think this is all that unusual. Many creative people will say that sadness is their muse. On the other hand, very few people read my soulful posts, so maybe it doesn’t matter that much. Except to me.
Truth is, I question whether or not I should continue blogging. It takes up a good chunk of my time– time that could be spent achieving other personal goals. It is such a part of my life, that it’s difficult for me to completely walk away. I am very up down– one day I love blogging, and the next I want to nothing to do with it. I need to take some time over Christmas and really decide if I’m in or not.
Truth is, I take my job as a Mother and Wife very serious. I am the caretaker of three young children– not just their physical needs, but the caretaker of their souls. They take priority over all other tasks… including blogging and social media, and when I have my back to them because I’m on the computer, it doesn’t feel right. When something doesn’t feel right… it’s not right.
Truth is, we rescued a sweet little pup last January. Hard to believe she’s been with us almost a year. My heart has grown larger everyday she’s been with us. It was one the best decisions I’ve ever made. She loves to run with me, but… confession… sometimes I just want to go for a run by myself. Having her along is very distracting, and I don’t feel as mentally refreshed when I return from a run if she is with me. On the other hand, I feel so guilty leaving her. Feeling torn.
Truth is, sometimes I go through life on autopilot. I wake up, have my tea, check my emails, make lunches, take kids to school, run, pick kids up, do homework and take them to their activities, day after day after day. Occasionally, I stop and wonder if this routine is really benefiting them or our family. Is there more to life than this? Is this all? Is this the best thing for them? Am I caught up in a trap of doing what everyone else is doing because were told it’s “the right thing”? It’s confusing and overwhelming.
Truth is, I’m tired of running in SoCal. It is so hilly in our neighborhood and most of the time it’s hot and exposed. I sound like I’m complaining, and perhaps I am, but I wish that one day, I could run on a flat surface, without panting for air. I want to walk out my front door and have an easy, breezy run. That’s not going to happen, so I carry on with my daily hill workout.
Truth is, I have no motivation to sign up for races next year. I have two marathons and few 5K’s planned, and that’s it. I don’t have the desire to do the training that’s necessary for a PR. I’m feeling a little unenthusiastic about racing in general. I need a new goal. Something to light that fire in me again. I’m feeling really flat in regard to running.
Truth is, I haven’t had my hair professionally cut in over 11 years. I am a licensed hair dresser, so I am very particular about how my hair is done. Plus, I just don’t make myself a priority that way. I would rather spend the money on something else. About once every 8 months, my husband cuts the length, and I cut the layers.
That was kind of cathartic. Perhaps I need to do more of these… 😉
How about you? Give me a “Truth is” either in a post or in the comments.